4.16.2010
I am a slacker. I have not blogged since January. Do I have any excuse that is anything remotely acceptable? In a nutshell, nope. And with that I offer my sincerest apologies for those of you who have become faithful followers. I promise to try to update more often. In fact, I've had several folks (you know who you are) ask me to update. So here I am. I've also had a few compliments from some folks as well regarding my writing and to you I say, "Thank You! Thank You! Thank You!" It truly tickles me (just on my hands though not my feet; no one touches my feet. It's a personal thing).
Spring is here- PRAISE JESUS! Now anyone that knows me, knows that I'm partially in love with winter. Seriously; no joke. There is simply nothing like a good old fashioned winter storm complete with icy roads, several inches of falling powder, and it being just cold enough that you don't freeze your assets off should you wind up in a ditch somewhere. However, even I grew tired of winter this year. I feel invigorated to see green grass, buds on trees, and knowing that I will now be planning my weekly field trips to the Farmer's Market!
First, the update.... When I left off I had my first set of scans just after Valentine's Day. Although my PET Scan came back PET Negative, they did have to document "notable uptake" in my thymus gland region. Dr. Micallef informed me that this could be:
1. Nothing- which we want more then anything...
2. The Big C rearing it's ugly head once again.. which words can't express how desperate I am to NOT have it be...
3. My body trying to regenerate the thymus gland...which is possible however not common according to Dr. Micallef in someone of my age; apparently its more common in younger patients which makes me think life really is downhill after thirty.
So off to the biopsy lab I went the next day for an ultrasound to see if there was a tumor that needed to be biopsied. Thankfully they found nothing, which meant it became a waiting game with my next scans happening next Wednesday (4.21.2010). Nervous doesn't begin to describe the anxiety I've been having. There are just not words to express the desperation I feel for wanting to just be Kristin again and not having the Big C be any part of my life but rather a chapter that's closed in the book of my life. With that said, any extra prayers you've got and positive energy please keep sending it my way.
With spring in the air I feel excited about life these days. There is just something about the spring time. Its similar to when school starts and you get to buy new notebooks, pencils, folders...need I go on? What can I say? The man that I will fall in love with someday will find this weakness of mine and win my heart with a bouquet of freshly sharpened pencils! (Maybe it's the teacher in me).
I will of course keep everyone posted on my scans next week and I'll be updating again soon, with soon being before April is over and not the first week in August!
